My little sister is coming to visit me in less than 2 months. This was a last minute trip(sort of)that we talked about and quite fortunately were able to pull off. She has never been here in the summer time, and last time she was here I was working most of the time. This time we will have loads of time together. She also gets to attend the Bahá'í summer school which is likely going to be really great!!!
I have been pretty excited all day since we booked her flight! I just realize (not that i wasn't aware of it before, but it manifests itself so clearly to me) how much joy and happiness I derive from being with my family. Parents to cousins, doesn't matter, I love them all! I mean I am my happiest when I am with my family. My sister and I have grown much closer this past year and its something that means a lot to me. So I can't wait for her visit because I know it will be great! I think both of us need it.
It's also cool because we will be moving into our newly purchased apartment only a few days before her arrival. There are a lot of fun things happening around the same time and much to look forward to. It puts a smile on my face!!! I just felt like sharing the joy!!! :o)))
Monday, May 19, 2008
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Effort
At what point do you just stop making the effort? when do you say to yourself, what's the point? no matter what I do, if i don't reach out they won't reach back and even if i do reach out they still might not reach back, so enough is enough, who cares, why bother??? when do you reach that point?
Friday, May 16, 2008
Criminal Minds
I am addicted to the show criminal minds. It's a show about the BAU(behavioral analysis unit) of the FBI. It's similar to Law&Order or CSI, but its much more interesting to me. I really like the characters and how the show is set up. It can be pretty scary to watch at times because they are pretty descriptive and a lot of the crimes they investigate are gruesome. I always worry that it gives bad people ideas, but my hubby says they get the ideas from crimes that have already happened.
It's a sad world. I mean the things that happen in this world its scary. I can't comprehend how anyone could possibly hurt another human being in the way they do on these shows, yet I know, unfortunately, it happens and even worse than anything seen on television. It disturbs me, but at the same time it makes me so happy to have my faith and to know that this is all a part of why the old world order needs to crumble(and is doing so) and a new one be rolled out in its stead. I mean yes some of this is just sick individuals, but a lot of the dirty things in the world, the evil, it comes from society. It's so clear to me that change is necessary and luckily we have the tools for bringing about that change.
So now I ask myself, is it wrong that I like this show so much? If I weren't desensitized some how would I even physically be able to watch it? Am I contributing to the evil in the world by finding a show about criminals and how they are caught so entertaining? I don't know. Maybe that's an extreme view. But I think it will be fantastic when the world reaches the day that such shows won't exist because people 1)won't be able to think of such scenarios and 2) people won't enjoy watching them. Till then I just have to admit it may be wrong, but I love it(hey at least they are out to get the bad guys and that is what i like seeing)! What are you gonna do?!?!
It's a sad world. I mean the things that happen in this world its scary. I can't comprehend how anyone could possibly hurt another human being in the way they do on these shows, yet I know, unfortunately, it happens and even worse than anything seen on television. It disturbs me, but at the same time it makes me so happy to have my faith and to know that this is all a part of why the old world order needs to crumble(and is doing so) and a new one be rolled out in its stead. I mean yes some of this is just sick individuals, but a lot of the dirty things in the world, the evil, it comes from society. It's so clear to me that change is necessary and luckily we have the tools for bringing about that change.
So now I ask myself, is it wrong that I like this show so much? If I weren't desensitized some how would I even physically be able to watch it? Am I contributing to the evil in the world by finding a show about criminals and how they are caught so entertaining? I don't know. Maybe that's an extreme view. But I think it will be fantastic when the world reaches the day that such shows won't exist because people 1)won't be able to think of such scenarios and 2) people won't enjoy watching them. Till then I just have to admit it may be wrong, but I love it(hey at least they are out to get the bad guys and that is what i like seeing)! What are you gonna do?!?!
Monday, April 28, 2008
Last 2 weeks
It's been a little while since I last blogged on here. During that time my parents came and went. They visited me for about a week on their way to Israel for the Baha'i International Convention which takes place every 5 years. I really enjoyed having them here. It was nice for them to see where I live and what my life consists of these days. It helps give them a mental picture. They seemed to really enjoy their visit and the surroundings here. It really is a beautiful city/country.
There wasn't too much time for the three of us to spend alone together because there were lots of visits with extended family members, in-laws, etc. That was nice too, but sometimes its nice to just be by yourselves and have some quality family time. They will be back through here for a day and half and I am hoping it will just be us and we can enjoy some quality time together. It's so hard being so far away. I wish my family had been lucky enough to be together, but sometimes wishes don't come true. There is always the next world...
If's funny because the weather was really lovely the entire time they were here and as soon as they left it got a bit cloudy and is not as nice, though it is much warmer and we can finally see signs of spring/summer on the way. The trees and flowers are starting to bloom. I really hope we have a good summer weather wise! Last week was great, and I would love more of that!
They met Bebo and loved him as I suspected they would. It's hard not to like him if you are a dog person. He is so cute, friendly, and funny! I adore this dog so much. I hope he stays healthy and I have him for a long, long time!
P and I signed a contract on an apartment agreeing to purchase it. If all goes well, we will be moving in during the beginning of July. I can't wait. I love the apartment I am in now, but at the same time, its not mine and I can't wait to be in my own place which belongs to me and I don't have to feel worried if something happens, etc.. AND to be rid of the stairs, oh the joy I feel already!!! Plus now I can completely decorate it with my own furnishings, I will have extra bedrooms so my family and friends can come and stay with me. I am very excited!!!
Ok, that's my latest update!
There wasn't too much time for the three of us to spend alone together because there were lots of visits with extended family members, in-laws, etc. That was nice too, but sometimes its nice to just be by yourselves and have some quality family time. They will be back through here for a day and half and I am hoping it will just be us and we can enjoy some quality time together. It's so hard being so far away. I wish my family had been lucky enough to be together, but sometimes wishes don't come true. There is always the next world...
If's funny because the weather was really lovely the entire time they were here and as soon as they left it got a bit cloudy and is not as nice, though it is much warmer and we can finally see signs of spring/summer on the way. The trees and flowers are starting to bloom. I really hope we have a good summer weather wise! Last week was great, and I would love more of that!
They met Bebo and loved him as I suspected they would. It's hard not to like him if you are a dog person. He is so cute, friendly, and funny! I adore this dog so much. I hope he stays healthy and I have him for a long, long time!
P and I signed a contract on an apartment agreeing to purchase it. If all goes well, we will be moving in during the beginning of July. I can't wait. I love the apartment I am in now, but at the same time, its not mine and I can't wait to be in my own place which belongs to me and I don't have to feel worried if something happens, etc.. AND to be rid of the stairs, oh the joy I feel already!!! Plus now I can completely decorate it with my own furnishings, I will have extra bedrooms so my family and friends can come and stay with me. I am very excited!!!
Ok, that's my latest update!
Monday, April 14, 2008
Life's Dilemmas
Why is it that as human beings we let quite trivial, and in the big picture, insignificant things, become "problems" in our lives? I mean somehow, despite knowing there is a big picture and more to life, the next world, etc... we still let ourselves get bogged down by things that in the end shouldn't matter.
For instance, if you are someone's friend and they end up not calling you and opting to be with someone else instead or blowing you off for something that in your opinion is silly, why should that really matter? I mean it does. There are very few people who can actually say they don't get bothered by these sorts of things. But why? I mean for those of us who have beliefs of a next world and believe that to achieve a higher station or better progress in that world, we should focus on bettering ourselves as human beings and service towards others, Why is it we allow ourselves anytime to even think about it?
It feels like we make this life much harder than it could be. Like if we could learn the art of letting things roll off like water off of a duck's back, life would be so much simpler. Whatever happened to "to each his own"? I mean I am the first person who is affected by these things. I am UBER sensitive, for real. I hate it actually. But I take everything personally. I always have. For instance, if i walked by a group of people and they started laughing, somehow I thought they were laughing at me, even though odds are it had nothing to do with me. I feel slighted very easily. I KNOW I shouldn't, but I do. I don't know how to not be so sensitive and how to not let things hurt me so easily. But that is why I wonder about this. Because I also believe strongly that these things don't matter. I mean I firmly believe I should be kind to others and it DOES matter if I am purposely unkind to someone or mean or rude etc... that is not acceptable and does matter. But in general, it shouldn't matter for me. I should just live my life, focus on what's important and not let the rest of it get to me. So why is it that I can't or that people in general can't? I greatly admire those who can!
For instance, if you are someone's friend and they end up not calling you and opting to be with someone else instead or blowing you off for something that in your opinion is silly, why should that really matter? I mean it does. There are very few people who can actually say they don't get bothered by these sorts of things. But why? I mean for those of us who have beliefs of a next world and believe that to achieve a higher station or better progress in that world, we should focus on bettering ourselves as human beings and service towards others, Why is it we allow ourselves anytime to even think about it?
It feels like we make this life much harder than it could be. Like if we could learn the art of letting things roll off like water off of a duck's back, life would be so much simpler. Whatever happened to "to each his own"? I mean I am the first person who is affected by these things. I am UBER sensitive, for real. I hate it actually. But I take everything personally. I always have. For instance, if i walked by a group of people and they started laughing, somehow I thought they were laughing at me, even though odds are it had nothing to do with me. I feel slighted very easily. I KNOW I shouldn't, but I do. I don't know how to not be so sensitive and how to not let things hurt me so easily. But that is why I wonder about this. Because I also believe strongly that these things don't matter. I mean I firmly believe I should be kind to others and it DOES matter if I am purposely unkind to someone or mean or rude etc... that is not acceptable and does matter. But in general, it shouldn't matter for me. I should just live my life, focus on what's important and not let the rest of it get to me. So why is it that I can't or that people in general can't? I greatly admire those who can!
Monday, April 7, 2008
Family....
Well another weekend has passed and still no home. That's ok! I am sure we will find something very soon! I am quite hopeful.
This weekend I found out my husband is going to be an uncle. I guess that means I too will be an aunt. Well, not really sure. The truth is, in my family, I have always considered my aunt/uncle's in law as aunt's and uncles. there really is no difference to me between them and my blood aunt and uncles. It's probably just how I was raised. I don't know if this little one on the way will view me in the same way. I guess it doesn't really matter, but it would be nice! Only time will tell...
The news certainly was a surprise. Truth is I always thought I would be the first one to get pregnant, but in a way its nice because now the pressure is off to provide a grandkid(to my inlaws that is, my own parents, that's a whole other story)! A baby is such a blessing so I am very happy for my brother and sister in law and wish them lots of luck on this journey of parenthood that they will now embark upon.
In other news, my parents get here next week and I am very happy about that. I can't wait to hang out with them and show them where I live, work, etc...I am very close to my family and being apart is not the easiest thing in the world. I would give anything to live closer to them and to my sister. Most people don't realize how lucky they are when they get to live near family. And quite frankly, sometimes if you can't appreciate what you have, you almost don't deserve to have it...But that's not my place to say. All I know is, I value family above anything else in this life and it incredibly STINKS that I don't get to be physically close to them!!! Oh well, you learn to live with certain disappointments in life, and this is most certainly the biggest one for me!!! Thank goodness for skype!!!
This weekend I found out my husband is going to be an uncle. I guess that means I too will be an aunt. Well, not really sure. The truth is, in my family, I have always considered my aunt/uncle's in law as aunt's and uncles. there really is no difference to me between them and my blood aunt and uncles. It's probably just how I was raised. I don't know if this little one on the way will view me in the same way. I guess it doesn't really matter, but it would be nice! Only time will tell...
The news certainly was a surprise. Truth is I always thought I would be the first one to get pregnant, but in a way its nice because now the pressure is off to provide a grandkid(to my inlaws that is, my own parents, that's a whole other story)! A baby is such a blessing so I am very happy for my brother and sister in law and wish them lots of luck on this journey of parenthood that they will now embark upon.
In other news, my parents get here next week and I am very happy about that. I can't wait to hang out with them and show them where I live, work, etc...I am very close to my family and being apart is not the easiest thing in the world. I would give anything to live closer to them and to my sister. Most people don't realize how lucky they are when they get to live near family. And quite frankly, sometimes if you can't appreciate what you have, you almost don't deserve to have it...But that's not my place to say. All I know is, I value family above anything else in this life and it incredibly STINKS that I don't get to be physically close to them!!! Oh well, you learn to live with certain disappointments in life, and this is most certainly the biggest one for me!!! Thank goodness for skype!!!
Thursday, April 3, 2008
And the Search Continues
The apartment I spoke of earlier is most definitely out of my grasp now. There are two families/people in a bidding war over it. They keep raising their bids and its now too much for me, which I expected. It's ok. I know it means this time it wasn't meant to be.
We are going to look at a few apartments this weekend and there is one we feel good about, but the concern would be if it went up a lot in price through the bidding process. Hopefully it won't, but you never know. We have to see it. it's quite possible that after seeing it in person we decide its not for us after all... The good thing is I am quite perseverant! So I will just keep looking and looking until I find a place! Though I would love it if that happened sooner rather than later.
My folks are coming to visit me in exactly 2 weeks from now, which I am really looking forward to. I wonder if I will have found a new place by then, probably not but who knows!!! I have scheduled vacation at work for the entire duration of their stay, so that is nice because it means I don't have to lose any time with them. We will probably do some sight seeing around town, but mostly just hang out together! I really can't WAIT for them to meet my dog, Bebo. He is such a character and I have been talking him up for a year now, so they can finally meet the little guy in person. I know my dad and Bebo are going to really hit it off, because Bebo is so playful and my dad loves dogs like that!!! Can't wait!!! Its funny, he's just a dog, but he brings me so much joy!!! i really do love him so much. everyday he does something that makes me laugh. I can't imagine how people could every be cruel to animals, most especially, adorable furry creatures like my little Bebo!!!
We are going to look at a few apartments this weekend and there is one we feel good about, but the concern would be if it went up a lot in price through the bidding process. Hopefully it won't, but you never know. We have to see it. it's quite possible that after seeing it in person we decide its not for us after all... The good thing is I am quite perseverant! So I will just keep looking and looking until I find a place! Though I would love it if that happened sooner rather than later.
My folks are coming to visit me in exactly 2 weeks from now, which I am really looking forward to. I wonder if I will have found a new place by then, probably not but who knows!!! I have scheduled vacation at work for the entire duration of their stay, so that is nice because it means I don't have to lose any time with them. We will probably do some sight seeing around town, but mostly just hang out together! I really can't WAIT for them to meet my dog, Bebo. He is such a character and I have been talking him up for a year now, so they can finally meet the little guy in person. I know my dad and Bebo are going to really hit it off, because Bebo is so playful and my dad loves dogs like that!!! Can't wait!!! Its funny, he's just a dog, but he brings me so much joy!!! i really do love him so much. everyday he does something that makes me laugh. I can't imagine how people could every be cruel to animals, most especially, adorable furry creatures like my little Bebo!!!
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